Sharing my Thanks on Thanksgiving!!!

This time last year, I lay in a hospital bed seven months pregnant with twins. Not knowing what would happen or could happen, I was alone with my thoughts. Chris was home with Matthew at night and I couldn't sleep. In a situation like that you try to remain positive, however no matter how hard you try, the worry creeps in. I never shared the thoughts I had that night with anyone until tonight.
It was the night before Thanksgiving and I was so scared. I thought about how if I lost those babies, holidays will never be the same, especially not Thanksgiving. How could I celebrate year after year? I know I would have to for the sake of Matthew, but is that possible? Would I be able to fake holiday cheer?
Then my thoughts went else where. The possibility of the babies nor myself making it. I couldn't bear the thought of the pain that would cause Chris and Matthew. How could Matthew grow up without a mother? His holidays would be ruined. I knew he would have his extended family there to share his holidays and life with and him nor Chris would be alone. I also knew that it would not be the same.
Fast forward one year later, I am here and two healthy beautiful babies are here. We are ready to celebrate Kyle and Mallory's first Thanksgiving and our first Thanksgiving as a complete family. I have a lot to be thankful for! I have a wonderful husband, who has, been through so much with me and has been supportive the whole way through. I also have three amazing children who light up my life everyday!!!
This year my thoughts are in the present and the future. I look forward to future Thanksgivings as the children grow and even one day with grandchildren running around!!!

I AM THANKFUL!!!!